Experience in Gym, need advice, pelase help
For 10 years, I've been in the confusion of my sexual orientation, and I dont dare to take a step forward, because I know this decision is a life decision, and I think I am not ready to take the challenge. I was uncertain, and rather to be in the grey area between heterosexual or homosexual. A few days back, I went to gym, and when I was showering, a guy went into my shower room, and gave me a blow job. I was stunned that time, shocked.I did not succeed to resist the temptation. After we went out from the changing room, he asked for my contact, and I hesitated. He says its ok, and I left. I am very guilty for what i've done to myself ( having sex with someone that I do not know, well, i consider blow job is sex), and I feel sorry for being so rude on that day. That was my 1st time of sexual experience with another person and I werent awoke from the incident on that moment when he asked for my contact. I dont know his name, I dont know what is the time he normally go to the Gym, I just left. And now, I regret, I think should have leave him my contact, at least I need to know his name, to be responsible to myself, at least. And I wanted to apologise to him for being so rude. And I wanted him to be my friend. If there is any relationship between us can go further, it has to starts with friendship, that is how I think ( am I being foolish? ). The only info I gave him is, I will normally go to the gym around 6-7pm.a E!h ?S'R(|
So, without knowing when will he comes, I everyday go to gym during 6-7pm, waiting for him, hoping him to show up, because this is the only connection we've got between both of us.4 days past. I finally see him again on the fifth day of waiting. But when he saw me, the only thing he did was smiling at me, waving, and ask if I finished my workout, and he didnt even stop his footstep for a second. I only had the time of saying "yeap" and smiling at him. Then he collects his towels and went into the changing room. I sat there, look at myself, and asked myself, am I being too serious? He is good looking, has a near perfect body shape. I am fat, not so good looking. I wonder why he picks on me, I wanted to know.
Please, I need some advice here, can anyone help me? Can I finally declare myself as gay now? Should I continue to look for him, and find chance to talk to him about this? I thought this is very important to me.... Ha~~ just 419 la! [b]回復 [url=http://www.tt1069.com/bbs/redirect.php?goto=findpost&pid=35688840&ptid=966984]2#[/url] [i]16弟[/i] [/b]
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[size=2][color=#999999]kumhon 發表於 2010-7-31 11:17[/color] [url=http://www.tt1069.com/bbs/redirect.php?goto=findpost&pid=35692600&ptid=966984][img]http://www.tt1069.com/bbs/images/common/back.gif[/img][/url][/size][/quote]
for one night! I think you better talk to him, if u like him!~ you need confident to go further with him!~~ z|jp!c}
however, if he doesnt like you why he want to blow job you!~~ therefore, i think you still got the chance to have relationship with him!~~ even thorgh you guys may not become couple but you can be friend. good luck!~~ You should go ahead and try.
At least you still have the chance to do so, YxaRD
sometimes we would meet the situation that wont have second chance$}u+kL ZZ
go for it! L,Sg1\&I%Dm
Dont worry about if it's gonna be just a fling or something else
We all encounter this ALL THE TIME I think you should not take this too seriousK ],Y;q'zh(]
Just take it easy and imagine that you just make a common friend{:5_197:} He will never be your friend if you dont step forward and talk to him. So, next time when you see him, be brave and seize the chance!
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